Tuesday, December 18, 2007

My Emotional Wall

I have spent the better part of my adult life single (come to think of it, I managed to be single in my youth as well). It seems that as of late, I find myself allured by the fairness of the opposite sex. I still worry that the reality of my life and who I am mat be a detraction to people. I know that we all have some variation of 'baggage' in our lives but, I do believe that another person's perception of my life may not be what they want to allow into their life. While all things change, we do tend to focus on the present and make decisions and yes, pass judgement on others for what we feel to be acceptable or unacceptable based upon those perceptions. I have the sense that it may be closer to me now than ever before... romance. It's been almost a decade since I left these emotions to lay and rest. It is indeed true, love does change one's perspective from take to give in this life. I have lived without someone else there for so long that I may be growing into the lifestyle that I unconsciously shall remain single for the lack of desire to be anything but single. I want this to change... soon.