Ahhhhhhhhhhh...

That pretty much sums it up. 'Forum' closed on sunday afternoon and we strike the set and had a healthy portion of the cast at hacienda for one last cast dinner party. It was another great show and I enjoyed that 'good stress' that theatre gives to me. I noticed though, and so have a few other people, that I slipped up on a few occasions and did not perform all of the responsibilities that I should perform. It does bother me when I let people down. I try to do the best I can but, I do make mistakes and I do hear about them (and I do hate making them). I am human. The break between shows will certainly do me some good. I have other things to attend to that I have not made the time to do... like... laundry (there goes an entire day). I am awaiting my tax returns which I should have by mid-february, at the latest. That money and the money I have from my annual bonus from the shop will go towards the next credit card pay off and into the car for some much needed repairs. I've spoiled myself and little bit with about five hundred dollars of it. I'm keeping myself reigned in much better now that I ever have. My discipline has evolved into being more aware of my spending. It's all good.
I keep thinking about what I'm going to do next. That 'bug' for theatre has become a frickin' 'hive'. My drive to do all that I can while I can is working full steam. I think about the experiences that I might miss out on and I re-motivate myself to get back into the thick of it again. The fact that I know I will come home and spend time on here, typing out my feelings and thoughts is some form of release and something that keeps my mind active. It's my mind that wants to keep my body in action. I'm very glad I discovered theatre. I hope that it continues to be my major outlet of creative process in the future as well. I just need to regulate myself and make sure that I do not over-commit myself to too many things at one time. The reality this time was that the demands of 'Forum' on me were not excessive but, when topped off with my thumb in recovery and the holiday stress at work. It did have a negative effect upon me. I need these next couple of weeks to regain myself and gear up for the next show. And now, a little rest and relaxation. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.